September 19, 2008

• Fetus Update

  DH and I went to our first official prenatal appointment with our midwife (well-- one of the pair of our midwives) yesterday. It was relatively uneventful. She asked us questions, the "birth attendant" (aka midwifery student) took my BP and had first shot at finding the heartbeat on Doppler. When she was unsuccessful (nothing like not finding the heartbeat to put a mom at ease), the midwife stepped in to do it and it took her a little while to find it-- but, she started on my left side and the Fetus was curled up on my right. Maybe it's normal, maybe it's remnants of having been through infertility, but it was reassuring to hear the heartbeat if only just to know the baby was still there. I mean, I'm not showing, I don't feel any movement, there are times I feel like the nausea is all in my head and I'm not really pregnant. Before finding the heartbeat there was a little part of me that felt like a fraud, like I was wasting the midwife's time. I know it's crazy, I have positive home pregnancy tests, positive blood tests, and saw the little flutter of a little heart at 7 weeks, but there are times it still doesn't feel real.

  I'm 12-ish weeks and tomorrow I go for the nuchal translucency ultrasound. I was leaning pretty strongly toward skipping it. Not because I worry about the effects of ultrasound, but because I don't think the test gives you very helpful information. DH wanted it and didn't see much of a downside... so, since he felt more strongly about doing it than I did about not, here we go.

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