Weblog

Sunday, 10 May 2009

Saturday, 09 May 2009

Friday, 10 April 2009

  • Just a reminder that many of my posts are "protected," meaning if you want to read them, you need to have a xanga account (you don't have to actually use it to have a xanga blog, but you need to have a sign-in name and password) and you need to let me know that you would like to be added to my protected list. You can leave a comment here if you would like to be added.

Wednesday, 01 April 2009

  • A Million Tiny Little Pieces

    I had meant to update for so long about life and the progressing pregnancy. Now I have to worst of all possible updates.

    Our dear, beloved son, Soren Emery was born still at 39weeks 5days on Sunday, March 29, 2009. He apparently died a few days before labor began. Maybe at some point I'll be able to write out the full story of what happened. But my heart is so broken that I just don't know if I can ever put it back together again. I loved him so much and wanted him so much and waited what felt like an eternity.

    He was 6lbs. 0oz., 18 inches long, with dark hair like his daddy. And just beautiful.

    I am still in the hospital and supposed to be released today. DH and I are going to go stay at my mom's house for a few days until we feel like we can face going home.

    I hate what this is doing to DH. I hate what this is doing to me. But more than any of that I  hate that the world will never know the sweet boy who grew for 9-10 months under my heart.

    I feel so lost and broken and like nothing will ever be any good again.

Monday, 09 February 2009

mischievium

Archives

Don't worry - your calendar is here… to see it in action just click "Save" above and refresh the page.

About Me

  • look into my eyes... you are feeling VERY sleepy... you will come read my blog...