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  • Around the House

    My current favorite Spaghetti sauce. Creamy, tomato-ey goodness. If you see it at your local Whole Foods (or wherever else), try it!

    My current favorite combination for "juicyfizz," a less sugary, more bubbly alternative to soda or plain juice. Yum.

    New bag! My faithful TimBuk2 bag that I've had for years is finally starting to fall apart, so I got a new bag before we went to Greece.

    I don't think we need to mention this one to DH, yet. (This is a beco baby carrier, I just loved the pattern. Speaking of which, it's laying on our new duvet cover, which I also love.)

    And look what DH ordered for me:

    It's a lapdesk for my laptop! I guess he wasn't a fan of the highschool yearbook I was using to keep the hot laptop from being directly on my legs.

    I need to go to work, so that's all for now.

  • They Are Night Zombies!! They Are Neighbors!! They Have Come Back From The Dead!! Ahhhh!

    Random information in numbered list form:

    1. I am back on night shift for the next four weeks.

    2. Two blogs I have recently begun reading in addition to my Xanga peeps:
           Sweet | Salty : Neighbor to the North. Fan-fucking-tastic writer. Funny, poignant, and a good photographer. Going through very rough times right now, though.
           Frogblog: Interesting life story, written almost daily by a genuine, interesting person. So, if you are, say, home sick on the couch for a weekend and have time, go back and read through her archive. One semi-annoying thing (but I TOTALLY get why) is that she shows pictures of herself, but never her entire face at once and in that one way, it's like the neighbor from "Home Improvement" has a blog. :o )

    3. I was home sick on the couch for the weekend. I've been sick on and off since the honeymoon and by Friday I had lost my voice, was coughing up yellow stuff, and generally feeling yucky. The next day, DH dragged my to the acute care clinic for antibiotics and a refill on my Advair (I don't use it unless I'm sick and get a cough). The yellow stuff is gone, the cough is still here (though less frequent), and my voice is slowly making a comeback.

    4. My favorite neighbor and her husband are buying a house in a suburb far, far away. :o (

    Tying 2 and 4 together are the most pressing thread in my life right now-- the buy a house and settle down thread. DH have been talking about buying a house intermittently for over a year now. For awhile our mantra was, "Let's wait until after the wedding." Then as the wedding got closer and we started talking about having a baby, it changed to, "Let's wait until I get pregnant." Not that I want to move when I'm pregnant, but I don't want to move, start a new job, then go out on maternity leave (or quit altogether). But what's causing me to reconsider are 2 things:

    A. We are running out of space. Wedding presents everywhere. I go cruising on Redfin, fantasizing about more space. And a dishwasher. And a backyard.
    B. I want to go someplace and really put down some roots. The whole time I've been here, I've been reluctant to invest myself in friendships and the community here because I know we aren't staying. Reading the frogblog made me realize how much I miss having a community and good friends in the same city (not that I don't love my online people, but it's hard to go see a movie or have dinner, you know?). I'm just feeling ready to get on with it already.

    And then I go to work and chat with my favorite people there and drive around this beautiful city and I'm pulled to stay here. I'm getting tired of feeling torn, I just want a decision made, already. I guess that's the J in my INFJ rearing it's head.

  • Thank you for all of your various messages of support. I think venting about it and being heard helped a lot, got it all out of my head and let it live somewhere else for awhile.

    Also, DH "kidnapped" me for the weekend for my birthday. We went up to Bodega Bay and drove around (Sonoma) wine country, on Saturday we visited Healdsberg where a lot of the local wineries have tasting rooms (fun for DH) and cute little shops (fun for me), and on Sunday we drove to Point Reyes National Park/ Seashore and hiked around before coming home. I was hoping to see starfish, but the tide was almost all the way in by the time we got out to the right beach, so I had to settle for sea anemones and a crab.

    We also had a nice 4th of July. One of my co-workers, one I have always felt simpatico with, but never hung out with outside of work, invited DH and me to come out to their house in the East Bay for the 4th. We hung out with them and some of their friends and played cards and ate 7 layer bean dip and hamburgers from the grill. It was exactly what I wanted to do for the 4th.

    I finally watched "Brokeback Mountain" yesterday (I got it from Netflix in March!  ). I don't know. It was well done and beautifully shot, but I wasn't as moved as I expected to be. Maybe it was more shocking and moving for older generations who couldn't conceive that two men could actually love each other (as opposed to just having a sexual relationship). Of course, I was breaking down boxes and trying to get the living room in better shape while I watched it, so maybe I was too distracted. It did give me a better appreciation of Heath Ledger as an actor, though.

    I also watched "The Prizewinner of Defiance, Ohio," which has also been sitting in my living room since March and was also not as good as I hoped it would be. Not that every movie needs to have main characters who follow and arc and change, but the main character seemed pretty much the same throughout. It was interesting, but failed to really move me.

    I did like Ratatouille, though. Didn't quite pack the emotional punch that Nemo did, but had it's own message about finding your place and incorporating seemingly opposite facets of yourself and your life without compromising your own authentic self.

  • I Heart Vacations

    For some reason I have yet to discern, I don't want to talk about the wedding. Any of it. Or look at pictures. I have a huge cauldron of emotions swirling around about it and I can't even begin to process it. Maybe I'm just sad it went by so quickly, maybe... and, see, there we start heading down the path that I'm trying desperately to avoid. There are a lot of maybies. There were a lot of things that went well, some that didn't, but I just don't want to get into all of it right now. It's still too close and raw.

    But the vacation part is nice. Minus KLM magically losing the reservation for the Amsterdam to Athens leg of our trip. They blamed Northwest (who I'm sure when we talk to them, will blame Expedia), then made us standby for the flight that we were supposed to have confirmed reservations for, luckily we got the last 2 seats on that plane or we would've had to stay in Amsterdam for another 9 hours. Here's the thing: I understand that shit proverbially happens and that sometimes it's going to happen to you. It wasn't that they lost the reservation, it was that they took NO RESPONSIBILITY for it and that they weren't terribly apologetic about it. Also, if you're going to be "partner airlines" and one of those partners screws up, whoever I am currently standing in front of (KLM, in this instance) needs to take responsibility and make it better and then behind the scenes deal with their partner over the problem. I do not expect that I should be told by the KLM desk person that I should write a lettler of complaint to Northwest, I expect an apology and something like free upgrades to make up for their grave mistake and our inconvenience. As it stands, they are both getting letters of complaint because I don't know who screwed up (and, as I point out above, it doesn't matter), all I know is that when we checked-in in Seattle, they checked our luggage through to Athens and we were told that we would have to get seat assignments for the Amsterdam-Athens leg in Amsterdam (because KLM will not assign seats until you check in) and were given, along with our Seattle-Amsterdam bording pass a receipt showing confirmed reservations on the Amsterdam-Athens leg.

    I was going to write about how nice our vacation has been so far, otherwise, but DP (I guess DH, now) just came in and told me that the one thing that I was MOST looking forward to (a Junior Suite with our own veranda and partitioned off section of the pool) in Crete was not, despite our discussions, what our travel agent actually booked and now they don't have anymore Junior Suites open. I know this sounds awfully whiny, I should be glad that I get to go to Greece in the first place, but I wouldn't be nearly as pissed right now if the Junior Suite had not been what we thought we paid for. I am so furious. And disappointed. Skinny girls who wear bikins don't have any idea what it meant to me to have my own section of the pool.

    I wasn't going to mention it, but now that this post is a full-on rant, can I add that I came down with a cold yesterday? Today I have the kind of barking-seal cough that makes people give me the evil eye for being out and about sharing my affliction-- particularly in the aftermath of the drug-resistant TB guy (who, PS, honeymooned in Santorini and Mykonos). Does anyone know how much Vitamin C you can safely take in one day? The ankle is holding up pretty well, still gets swollen and a little painful by the end of the day, but is otherwise okay.

    Okay... next post will be about how much fun I'm having (which I am) and how beautiful it is (which it is) I promise.

    PS When I wrote the title for this post, it was not meant to be sarcastic, but reading it with the actual post that ended up underneath it sure makes it sound sarcastic! :o )

  • So Much For That

    Apparently, even though Urgent Care is "open" until 4pm on Saturdays, they stop taking patients sooner because when I got there, there was a sign that said they were closed. So... my option was ER or go home. This is probably the 6th or 7th sprained ankle I've had and, actually, it's relatively mild, like I can skip the crutch phase and go right to the wearing an ankle stabilizer, but I should stay off of it as much as I can for a few days. Anyway, I know it's not broken, so going to the ER would have been useless, they would've taken an xray, told me to ice it and wrap it, take an anti-inflammatory, and stay off of it for a few days.

    So, here I am, back on the couch with my ankle wrapped, iced, and elevated with ibuprofen on board. As far as how it happened, DP had just dropped me off to pick up my contacts I took two steps out of the car and my ankle bent under me really hard. I looked later and there was a dip in the pavement (the beginnings of a pothole) where I had walked, so maybe that was what caused it.

  • Timing is Everything

    I am sitting here on the couch waiting for Mark to get out of the bathroom so that he can take me to the urgent care clinic. I just sprained my ankle. This motherfucking ankle better be fine by next Saturday. Goddamnit.

  • Completely overwhelmed with wedding stuff. House a total mess. Boxes everywhere. Going to Greece (the Greek Isles, mainly) for  honeymoon.  If I have time before the wedding to give a longer blog post, I will. Sorry everybody.

  • Off To Work She Should Go
    Linda Hirshman
    (New York Times Op-Ed)

    THE United States Bureau of Labor Statistics recently published its
    long-awaited study, "Trends in Labor Force Participation of Married
    Mothers of Infants." "In recent years," the number crunchers reported, "the labor force participation of married mothers, especially those
    with young children, has stopped its advance."

    Sixty percent
    of married mothers of preschool children are now in the work force,
    four percentage points fewer than in 1997. The rate for married mothers
    of infants fell by about six percentage points, to 53.5 percent. The
    bureau further reports that the declines "have occurred across all
    educational levels and, for most groups, by about the same magnitude."

    In
    sum, sometime well before the 2000 recession, wives with infants and
    toddlers began leaving the work force. And they stayed out even after
    the economy began to revive.

    For several years, experts have been
    arguing about the "opt-out" revolution -- the perception that there has
    been an exodus of young mothers from the work force. Heather Boushey of
    the Center for Economic and Policy Research called the opt-out
    revolution a myth, and asserted that married mothers don’t drop out any
    more than other women in a bad economy. The new report is strong
    evidence that something really is going on.

    Why are married
    mothers leaving their jobs? The labor bureau’s report includes some
    commonsense suggestions, but none that fully explains the situation.
    New mothers with husbands in the top 20 percent of earnings work least,
    the report notes. As Ernest Hemingway said, the rich do have more
    money. So they also have more freedom to leave their jobs. But why do
    they take the option? It’s easier in the short term, sure, but it’s
    easier to forgo lots of things, like going to college or having
    children at all. People don’t -- nor should they -- always do the easier
    thing.

    The authors also speculate that the pressure of working
    and running a household is great. They do not say, however, that
    working hours have increased as participation has declined. Educated
    women, they report, work 42.2 hours a week on average and those with
    professional degrees, 45 -- hardly the "80-hour week" of legend.

    Poorer
    mothers can less afford child care, and because they earn less, their
    opportunity costs of not working are lower, the authors suggest. But
    for these women, lost income cuts deeper. And this factor, like the
    average number of hours worked, has not changed since 1997.

    What
    has changed in the last decade is that the job of motherhood has ramped
    up. Mothers today spend more time on child care than women did in 1965,
    a time when mothers were much less likely to have paying jobs, family
    scholars report.

    The pressure to increase mothering is
    enormous. For years, women have been on the receiving end of negative
    messages about parenting and working. One conservative commentator said
    the lives of working women added up to "just a pile of pay stubs." When
    the National Institute of Child Health reported recently that long
    hours in day care added but a single percentage point to the
    still-normal range of rambunctious behavior in children, newspaper
    headlines read, "Day Care, Behavior Problems Linked in Study."

    Should
    we care if women leave the work force? Yes, because participation in
    public life allows women to use their talents and to powerfully affect
    society. And once they leave, they usually cannot regain the income or
    status they had. The Center for Work-Life Policy, a research
    organization founded by Sylvia Ann Hewlett of Columbia, found that
    women lose an average of 18 percent of their earning power when they
    temporarily leave the work force. Women in business sectors lose 28
    percent.

    And despite the happy talk of "on ramps" back in, only
    40 percent of even high-powered professionals get back to full-time
    work at all.

    That the most educated have opted out the most
    should raise questions about how our society allocates scarce
    educational resources. The next generation of girls will have a greatly
    reduced pool of role models.

    But what is to be done?
    Organizations like Moms Rising and the Mothers Movement Online have
    stepped up the pressure for reforms like flexible work hours and paid
    parental leave. Such changes probably would help lower-income women in
    the most unforgiving workplaces. But they are unlikely to affect the
    behavior of the highly educated women with the highest opt-out rates.

    We
    could make an effort to change men’s attitudes. Sociologists have found
    that mothers (rich and poor) still do twice the housework and child
    care that fathers do, and even the next generation of males say they
    won’t sacrifice work for home. But in the short term, it might be
    easier to change the tax code.

    In most American marriages, wives
    earn less than their husbands. Since the tax code encourages joint
    filing (by making taxes lower for those who do), many couples figure
    that the "extra" dollars the wife brings in will be piled on top of the
    husband’s income and taxed at the highest rates, close to 50 percent,
    according to estimates made by Ed McCaffery, a tax professor at the
    University of Southern California. Considering the cost of child care,
    couples often conclude that her working adds nothing to the family
    treasury.

    If married couples were taxed as the separate income
    earners they often are, women would be liberated from some of the
    pressure to reduce their "labor force participation," as the labor
    bureau would say.

    Labor statistics are always couched in such dry
    language, but it reveals a powerful reality: working mothers, rich and
    poor, struggle with their competing commitments. Now that we have seen
    the reality, it is time to address it.

    Linda Hirshman is the author of "Get to Work: A Manifesto for Women of the World."

    My Thoughts:

    This piece is so condescending and completely seems to miss the point.

    "New mothers with husbands in the top 20 percent of earnings work least, the report notes. As Ernest Hemingway said, the rich do have more money. So they also have more freedom to leave their jobs. But why do they take the option? It's easier in the short term, sure, but it's easier to forgo lots of things, like going to college or having children at all. People don't, nor should they, always do the easier thing."

    Why are there more professionally educated women, married to men in the top 20% of income leaving work? This doesn't seem like a hard question to answer-- because THEY CAN. They don't financially have to go to work, why do 2 jobs when you can only do one? Is the author overestimating the number of people/women who love their jobs? Is she underestimating the number of people/women who believe that raising children IS A JOB and a hard one and one that is very fulfilling and very necessary? There are many families that choose to go with less in the way of material stuff in order to have a stay at home parent because they believe it's important and because they want to-- if they didn't think raising kids was important, then maybe they wouldn't have had them.

    Which brings me to another question, should good/ excellent child care be cheap?

    The more education and skill a job demands, the more money the person filling that job expects to receive. The idea that a double-income family should be able to pay for childcare and still come out ahead is predicated on the assumption that whoever is making less money (usually the woman) should still earn MORE than the whoever they're paying to care for their child while they are at work. Which is predicated on the belief that childcare is not a job requiring skill and education. Which is crap.

    Sure, there are many women out there who do find blending working out of the home with being a mother to be more fulfilling (there are certainly a lot of men who do, or who don't even feel like staying at home full time is an option) and it's fine for them to seek alternate caregivers for their children, but the family shouldn't expect to do it on the cheap. Devaluing alternate caregivers, devalues the primary ones, who are almost always the mother.

    "Should we care if women leave the work force? Yes, because participation in public life allows women to use their talents and to powerfully affect society."

    I have two problems with this statement:
    First, that the stated reason we should care if women leave the work force is NOT because it statistically puts women and children in a financially vulnerable position (if you don't know what I'm talking about, read The Price of Motherhood), it's because they are no longer participating in public life and powerfully affecting society. Second, the implication here is that being a mother means that you don't participate in "public life," don't "use your talents," and that you don't "powerfully affect society." WHAT? Is the author clear that society is made up of individuals and that every single individual out there has a mother? I don't want to go all Whitney-Houston-I-believe-that-children-are-our-future on her ass, but children actually ARE the future and raising them to be caring, educated, and evolved people takes talent and powerfully affects society.

    (And this is not to say that there's one specific way to raise children well, everyone is different, in some couples it might actually be the man who is better suited to nurturing young children, but, DAMMIT, someone needs to take care of the kids and in a perfect world it would be someone who is "educated" and "talented.")

    "That the most educated have opted out the most should raise questions about how our society allocates scarce educational resources. The next generation of girls will have a greatly reduced pool of role models."

    This is probably the most insulting line in the piece.

    What if, WHAT IF the most educated are opting out specifically because they are educated and they want to use their skills and talents to raise their kids?

    And WHAT IF the next generation of girls grow up with well-educated mothers? What exactly is it that the author believes women should be role-modeling? Working themselves to the bone to try and maintain a household and get ahead in a system that devalues them to begin with, and that, for the sake of convenience and money, fails to recognize the direct contribution mothers make to the work force? (I.E. stable, well-adjusted, well-educated kids grow up to be good employees, leaders, etc.)

    WHEN WILL THE WOMEN'S MOVEMENT REALIZE THAT YOU DON'T MAKE PROGRESS BY PRESSURING WOMEN INTO CONFORMING TO A SYSTEM SET UP LARGELY BY MEN? You make progress by valuing the unique contributions that women bring, you make progress by valuing mothers because the reality is women are the ones who bring forth human life and all of the good and bad that entails-- but the "bad" should be nausea and swollen feet and sleepless nights, not losing out on promotions because they can't stay at the office until 11pm (because maybe NO ONE should stay at work that late) or being at much greater risk of poverty following a divorce.

    ETA Also, reading articles from women like this makes me wonder what their version of an ideal world would be-- 100% of women with infants and preschoolers in the work force? So... in that version, who, again, is taking care of the kids? Oh, wait, they're paying someone else to do it, right? So, wait, if you're being PAID to take care of children you are "in the work force" (which, according to the author, seems to be a good thing), but if you do it "for free," you are not "in the work force" and that is bad? Again, I have to go with Ann Crittenden on this one, MAYBE the answer is that we as a society SHOULD pay mothers for their contribution.


    Thanks to T450 for the article.

  • Current Addictions

    Boden: My new favorite place to get clothes. It reminds me of what the gap used to be-- reliable standards with a different and/ or fun twist. I wish there was a store nearby (as I really prefer to try on clothes before I buy them), but I guess I have to settle for catalog shopping for now.

    Planet Earth: If you haven't seen it yet, you really should. It totally lives up to the hype. The adjectives breathtaking, stunning, and astounding seem inadequate and cliche to describe this series which attempts to capture the amazing diversity that exists on this planet in all of the likely and incredibly unlikely places where life takes hold.

    Book Worm: Stupid online game and waste of time, but fun! (Click on realarcade.com, then "online games," then "Book Worm Deluxe"-- which is a little bit tricksy of them because the "Deluxe" version is the download version you would have to pay for and the regular Book Worm is online and free, but clicking on the Book Worm Deluxe link under the online games section takes you to the regular online version-- confused, yet?)

  • Gently To The Earth

    Disclaimer:
    Many of the people who read my blog kick my butt in terms of their level of environmental responsibility, so if you are one of those people, this post is not aimed at you.

    So, Friday, Oprah had a show on easy ways for people to live more "green." I felt like she introduced the concepts, but didn't quite explain how to make some of them easy to implement-- which is really the key to getting lazy people like me to convert. So, here are my tips for lazy people who care about the earth.

    Cloth Grocery Bags:
    I only started using these about a year ago, but the key, for those with cars, is to keep them in the trunk so that you have them with you. The other key is to find bags that work for you. Personally, I find the canvas ones sold at Trader Joe's to be a bit too small, whereas the Whole Foods "green bags" are about the size and shape (i.e. flat, square bottomed) of a paper grocery bag and very strong.

    A good friend of mine, currently serving in the Navy in Japan, heard that San Francisco is banning plastic grocery bags and sent me a really nice cloth/ vinyl Japanese grocery bag (thanks, Beast!!!).

    See the close up below for the wording on the bag :o )

    Then, today, while DP and I were at the grocery store we bought some cloth/ mesh produce bags. Again, the key will be to keep these in the cloth grocery bags in the car.



    Reusable Water Bottles:
    When I bought my first Nalgene bottle, though I loved it, I found I was still buying a lot of bottled water because it seemed my Nalgene bottle was always dirty. The solution? Reaching critical mass. I.E. owning enough water bottles that there was almost always one filled with water in the fridge ready to go. Each person or household's "magic number" may vary, our seems to be about 12, though that number might be a little bit positively affected by the number of pretty ones out on the market.

    You'll notice, however, that none of the bottles in my little water
    bottle metropolis are Nalgene bottles. I started with one or two
    aluminum Sigg bottles because they were pretty, then made the switch
    entirely once I began reading about Bisphenol-a. There is a controversy over whether or not it leeches out of the polycarbonate Nalgene bottles (not to be confused with their HDPE bottles, which are possibly safer), but I figure why take the chance?

    The Sigg bottles do have a lining, to keep the water from tasting like and leeching aluminum, which you can read about here.

    Evironmentally Friendly Cleaning Products:
    While it is great that Oprah featured companies like Seventh Generation, Method, Mrs. Meyers, and Shaklee and talked about how we need to shift our idea of what clean is and smells like (Hey, America! Maybe reeking of solvents and artificial scents doesn't indicate clean, so much as it does the replacement of bacteria with toxic chemicals!), the brands she talked about tend to be on the more expensive side-- Trader Joe's cleaning products are also enviromentally friendly and tend (though, it's not true across the board) to be less expensive. And, then there's always good old vinegar and baking soda. I, personally, dislike the smell of vinegar, but it is a cheap, environmentally friendly option.

    This weekend, I also bought some microfiber cloths because, while I do love me some swiffer cloths, the waste was getting to me. The microfiber cloths pick up dust and hair just as well, and I can throw them in the washer and reuse them instead of throwing them in the trash.

    Hybrid/ Fuel Efficient Cars:
    Did she talk about cars? If she did, I don't remember it. No real tips here, but I did want to say something about this topic. As many people know, I own a Prius and the truth is that, as far as fuel efficiency, there are other non-hybrid cars that get comparable actual (not the 60 mpg that Toyota claims) miles per gallon. The Prius has lower emssions, but more than that, I felt like purchasing one was making a statement to automobile producers: Fuel efficiency and enviromental friendliness do matter to consumers and can be profitable to you, please produce more cars along these lines.